Friday, May 09, 2014

Squeaky clean

I had been floating along below the surface for years.

I hated being on methadone. I hated using every day.
The only thing I hated more, was not using.

I thought it was going to be like that forever. I know the stats. No one ever gets - and stays - clean.

Then I heard about ibogaine, an extract from the iboga plant, a natural hallucinogenic used to treat addiction. It was rumoured to virtually eliminate all the withdrawal symptoms while restoring healthy brain chemistry. Nothing does that.

I was out of options, so I held my breath and jumped.

The trip was like a lucid dream, with incredible detail. It showed me what I've been doing wrong, what I need to do to be happy, and how I belong in this mad world.

In less than 24 hours it had rinsed me clean of all drugs and filled me with a natural high that makes heroin seem like nothing.

As soon as I opened my eyes, I knew it had worked.

The empty ache inside me was gone.

The world was so beautiful. Is so beautiful. I just couldn't see it before.

I'm going to be okay now.

Thanks for sticking by me.






6 Comments:

Blogger Absolut Ruiness said...

HEY TUI....!!!! (sorry for shouting out loud)......I'm so happy to see you! More-so because you have rid yourself of the pain and suffering in your life. Love you and will keep you in my thoughts today. Looking forward to reading more from you.

2:28 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

So happy for you! It sounds like you have turned the proverbial corner. Many positive thoughts and hugs.

7:39 AM  
Blogger Erik Donald France said...

Three cheers, Tui ~ salud ~>

9:26 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Tui,

Been a while since I've stopped, but tonight I have and found the good news. It's a few months later and I trust all is well.

10:20 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I hope things are still going well for you! I'm glad I could still find your blog after all this time. Cheers.

6:00 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Something reminded me of you and your blog and I'm so glad I managed to find it after so many years...

I hope the optimism and positivity of this post has continued and your life is as you'd wish it.

6:49 AM  

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