Squeaky clean

I had been floating along below the surface for years.

I hated being on methadone. I hated using every day.
The only thing I hated more, was not using.

I thought it was going to be like that forever. I know the stats. No one ever gets - and stays - clean.

Then I heard about ibogaine, an extract from the iboga plant, a natural hallucinogenic used to treat addiction. It was rumoured to virtually eliminate all the withdrawal symptoms while restoring healthy brain chemistry. Nothing does that.

I was out of options, so I held my breath and jumped.

The trip was like a lucid dream, with incredible detail. It showed me what I've been doing wrong, what I need to do to be happy, and how I belong in this mad world.

In less than 24 hours it had rinsed me clean of all drugs and filled me with a natural high that makes heroin seem like nothing.

As soon as I opened my eyes, I knew it had worked.

The empty ache inside me was gone.

The world was so beautiful. Is so beautiful. I just couldn't see it before.

I'm going to be okay now.

Thanks for sticking by me.