Thursday, June 08, 2006

"Nighty night"

I wake up from a nightmare every night at around 1.30am. The TV is screaming, it's an infomercial. The bed next to me is empty. I reach behind me by the light of the TV, but the air feels different, I know instantly, instinctively, that he's gone. I switch off the TV and turn on my bed-side lamp. I curl up with my book until I've shaken off whatever woke me. When the alarm goes off at seven, he's always back in place. Innocent sleeping, baby-face. My living room has strange things in it. Stolen things. As soon as the pawn shop opens, he's through the door. Some things he can be on time for. It makes my skin crawl. "Don't you feel like an asshole?" I ask him. He shakes his head, entitled. Or gets angry, and starts crying. There's always some justification in his mind. I'm worried. I don't like having stolen things in my little home. I realize he will probably try to do the same thing to me when he moves out. Come in during the day, take the things I won't notice, or if he's desperate, take the things I will notice. I'm not sure how to make myself safe. I know he can break in, he's done it tons of times when he forgets the key. He can't empathise, he thinks I earn too much, thinks I have it easy. It would be so nice to wake up and find out this was just a bad dream too.


Anonymous Anonymous said...

idea: sell off everything of any value you own, before he move out. =D

1:22 PM  
Blogger History of Madness said...

I'm sorry if this question has been answered, but I am just getting started reading your blog (and I really enjoy it, by the way)... but is this guy a crackhead, or junky? Just wondering because he sounds like a crackhead... sorry if that is insulting but you don't sound too attached anyway.

Oh, and get some renter's insurance (or if you own get that kind) and gladly accept his thievery when he leaves... write down descriptions now, and when he leaves file a vague police report and get the cashola from insurance corp.

Anyway, I really enjoy and will be back for more reading!


3:17 AM  
Blogger tui said...

Hey HOM, in answer to your question- he's a junky. Good idea about the renter's insurance. I'll look into it. T

9:39 AM  

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