Several things have made me feel much better. On Monday I finally replaced my bmx that got nicked over winter. My new one is beautiful. All black with lemon yellow tires. It takes me ten minutes to get to work now, instead of forty by foot or bus to metro. I ride on the sidewalks, dart between cars, race down one-way streets the wrong way. Wind in my hair, my heart races and I feel strong. My house is almost clean of all my boyfriends things. He's 75% moved out. At last. Already I can breathe a bit easier. And the kitten is glorious.